"Don't Give Up on Me"

Depression and desperation.

You tell me I'm changing and the family is miserable.
I fight back the angry words from my mouth.
I don't understand what is happening to me!
We used to be such a happy family.
I sit beside you and what you see is not "me."
I am, however, still here!, "TRAPPED" in this horrible place inside!
You think I'm going crazy, I know that I am!
You think that I must choose this, because I do nothing to change it to make it better.
You're mistaken!
I cry myself to sleep at night. I hate, "ME"!
My heart breaks for our children for they have, in a sense, lost their mother.
I feel the seperation between us.
It's as if I am a disease invading your body.
You look at me in disgust!
I no longer look like the wife and mother I used to be.
My hair is uncombed,
I'm still in my pajamas.
I know you're having a hard time holding on
but please "don't give up on me"!