One Last Speech

about after my first "love".jealousy after being cheated on with an ex girlfriend.

Tell me...
Do I disgust you?
Were you scared
to watch
When I was
sucking the ignorance
from her spine?
And she was crying
for you. Remember?
A lover never
tasted so good
in a haters mouth,
foaming up
with excitement
and desperation.
To feel like I did.
To feel a sense of reality
flowing in my nerves.
Breaking my wrists to
stay consious
of this world.
Bleeding out the mouth
Kicking my own head in,
I know you willl never
love me again.