the wings of an angel cut deep

This a poem that i wrote about who i feel after giving birth to my stillborn son, Adonis

        the wings of an angel cut deep
                    prayers unanswered rang in the air
            riping the hearts out of many, more so mine
            every night i would go to sleep and thank God
                darling dear baby within my womb
            more presious to me than the thought of breathing
            gave my all to do right and keep him safe all the time
                  even all that i did was not enough
            how can i go on in this world alone?
            everyone can see how the wings of an angel cut deep
            people do not understand what is going on in the mind
              do they pretend to care or acknowledge why?
                yes they do but why should i cry?
                  you know my baby died
            during pregnancy at eight months
            so now i wont have another out of fear
            really could not handle it again in this life
            everything is mean-less to me now
            when the wings of an angel cut deep down