"2 many questions...2 little time"

written back in 2006..when i was going through alot of stuff

i dont know where ill be today or tomorrow
i dont know how to experience any joy from the sorrow
when will it stop?
will i ever get some rest?
how can i get myself
to rise above the rest?
a cut so deep?
a pill to sweet?
thats just a weakness
that i just have to beat
i need to sit back
and look at what i have to gain
find some peace and clarity
to help ease my brain
too many thoughts that are going nowhere fast
how can i find happiness
and get it to last?
how do i get through the obstacles
and not fall in defeat?
and how do i make sure the tragedies of my past
dont come back to repeat?
too many questions
too little time
how long will it take
for the answers to fall in line?
its time to take my insecurities
try to set them free
light them on fire
for me to return to me
but alas i dont think it was meant to be
and maybe happiness wasnt meant for me
so all i have left is the thoughts in my braind
and a big cloud of smoke
to help me ease the pain!