Only if you knew

Take a look at me now

I let you walk away

Without knowing who I really am

Deep beneath these fears

Everynight  wishing you were near

The minute you walked out the door

That was the day I felt all sore

You’re all I ever wanted

You’re everything that I needed

But now you can never see

What you meant to me

Because my fears overpowered me

In your eyes I’ve changed

In your heart I am to be blame

But only if you know

That I never meant to hurt you

Because I was only afraid of losing you

And now I lost the strength

I lost my faith

I lost my confidence

I lost myself

And I am yearning for help

All I wanted was to love you

And for you to feel the fears I felt for you

The guarded doors rose again

Protecting my heart from bleeding again

What you’ll never know

My heart bleeds for you