Past Protects The Future

Fear and pain in the past can cause one to protect loved ones in the future.

Scary dreams that shake the night!
Keeps me up with another fight.
You don’t know I’m awake, but I
Listen and wait.
Everything is so dark and sad.
Remember, I am still here in my bed.

I dream all the time in my mind,
So you won’t see any crime…
A convicted child of nothing.
Another beating for speaking.
Coping with it by dreaming.

Everyday I become weaker.
My spirit is slowly being broken.
Mom is crying, is that my fault too?
All I do is wrong.

Anybody there?
No one sees me.
Does anyone love me?
Run, run, run
Everywhere there is pain.
Will I ever be happy?

Give me love and I will be good.
Relax, and try not to be mad.
All I can do, is be me.
Can’t you see, I’m a baby?
I don’t know how to be an adult.
All I can be is me.
Never hit me, I’m not a bad kid.
No I’m not a grown-up, I’m just a baby.
All I can do, is be is me.

Many years later
You haven't changed
How can you be so evil?
Only now you can't touch me
Protecting my little-ones is what I learned
Everyday you abused me