Fragments part 2 (from Edward to Bella)

Edward's part was harder to write and it didn't turn out as well. I like part 1 best.

      Fragments part 2 (from Edward to Bella)

I never wanted her to cry
I want her to live, not die
She shouldn't be cursed to this soulless existence
But it's so hard for me to hold up resistance
She's done nothing to deserve being lost in this life
Drowning in blood thirst, pain, and strife
I found my love,
Then I lost her again
I left my sunshine
My only friend
I had to leave her so she wouldn't be hurt
I was up in the sky,
Now I'm down in the dirt
So here I am,
My suicide,
I have only you,
My lover will never be mine