Equal or Enemy

Poem written to my now ex girlfriend. pretty angry, there is not purposeful rhyme scheme.

Tell me right now…
Do you want me beside you
As your woman,
Or behind you
As your past?

Do you want my hand
As an equal,
Or my hate
As an enemy?

I’m not afraid,
Not of you.
Because at the end of the day
It’s me in my bed

And every night,
It’s me wondering
If you were just playing
With my heart.

Are you just like the last girl,
Or are you here to stay?
Are you going to be serious about me,
Or am I just your toy?

I don’t need you by my side,
Or in my bed
To tell me that I am alive.

I live my life
As my own.
And even if you were to be mine,
You would never be my reason for life.

You can be my love,
You can be my heart,
But never my life.

So tell me, right now
Do you want me
as your girlfriend,
Or do you want me
As your past?

I love you
And I want you to do the same
But I won’t force you to play tricks
And I don’t want a lie

Every night
It’s me that I lay down to
You can be by my side
Every night, every day, for life…
But it’s still me, that I will be.