Dreams

just some thoughts

What do dreams mean
Are they simply a story weaved
mostly by an overactive imagination
one that leads you to a place
that has never even graced your thoughts
or do they open up a world to your deepest wants
because if the latter is true
my dreams are fucked up
then I want death
and I want glory
but most of all I want love
something that seems to elude me
considering I have no memory of someone expressing it to me
these dreams that arise vary greatly
from dark hostage situations to walking down the beach with a lonely stranger
yet neither of this things ever happened to me
nothing seems to happen to me
I channel nothing but mediocrity in my life
I seem to only drift, not swim or even drown
but I try, I try so hard
try to drown myself and allow water to fill by porous lungs
but alas someone always saves me
I cannot stand this unvarying routine
to the point that I wish nothing more than to do something to be remembered
as expressed in my dreams I want death, glory, and love
something that can make me believe
believe that somewhere out there
someone is thinking of me enough
to want to hear these dreams