Too Far

self injury

when everything falls apart
i grab my blade and slice
i feel no pain
only numbness

i watch the blood trickle down my arm
and then i cut some more
so addictive i cant stop
cut too deep and ill kill myself

i dont want to die
at least not yet
so i force myself to stop
i finally stop to think

i feel better and clean my wounds
then i lay in bed examining them
i get angry because i could have done worse
and say im just so weak

each and every time i cut
it gets worse and worse
i cant control myself
i go bizzare

maybe one day ill go to far