Terminally Dead

suicide can make you antsy.

a lonely burden,
in the dark night,
a searching soul,
in the land of nowhere.

just one blistering thought,
of the happenings you dread,
someone's watching, someone knows,
or could that be your sanity,
fighting its way through the danger of your mind.

when time stands still,
and darkness freezes,
to fight or die,
and painfully regret,
the sacrifices you made.