Acting

Social etiquette - how am I supposed to be?

You force me with others.
I sit in silence.
I know I am quiet - when I voice myself you find me strange.
Should it matter?

I hide.
I am someone else around you, I am myself alone.

I don't know how to be.
Shall I be true to myself?
Why? I don't care much for my own feelings.
You don't care for them either.

I act.
Everyday I pretend I am the person you think I should be.
Am I really acting,
or am I just a person who does what I'm told?
I don't want to fight.
I don't want to cause conflict.
I try to be who you think I should be, but I don't know how to be that.
I don't know how to be me either.
Who am I?
I should try to be myself, reveal myself...
It feels dangerous, scary.

I prefer acting.