Forgiving

I want to forgive you, BUT...

I want to forgive you
But I can't let go

I want to believe you
But the truth I know

I want to understand you
But I do not know how

I want to ask you
But it is too hard now

I want to accept you
And have you in my life

I want to have a dad
And make everything right

I have tried to forgive you
But it never seems to last

I want to stop hurting
But I can't forget the PAST...