For my hero's sake

This writing is in description of attitude towards a hero's death

I am lost in a maze,
face to gaze at a null,
dull-minded, even sad;
sober-willed shall I mourn.

Shall I mourn grace that left
ungraced as they speak of it-
as they spit on dry crock
and call with scorn, "morose".

Yet I will be proud, very,
to grieve for his one's sake
and to don, shame amiss,
unstyled sack as cloth.