Confession (thanks Merl for tittle)

brand spanking new writing..4/19/09

Tears stream down my face
reminding me of a place
I wish not to think about.

I feel abused and scared,
feelings are not to be shared
and I just wish to shout.

I try to smile through my tears,
try to laugh through all fears
and look for a way out.

I wish that I could be held,
wish in two my heart would meld
but feel it shall not amount
to anything, sometimes, not always...

I pray for someone to understand
that I am nothing if not a man
who is finding his way,
who doesn't have a plan,
just a man, a simple man
who just wishes to smile
even though they are broken inside
who wishes no longer to hide,
just wishes to be held awhile.

I close my eyes....
and I dream.
I close my eyes....
and I picture the scene.
I close my eyes....
and hear His voice.
I close my eyes....
and know I have a choice.

It is my choice to take heed.
It is my choice to let go.
It is my choice, only my choice,
only I can make this decision...
this I know.

So I will listen and
I will hear...
I will hide no longer,
nor will I fear
the voice of the One
who offers me comfort,
the voice of the One
who offers me joy.
I shall hear His Word,
I shall listen to His voice.
I shall know that I have
made the right choice
when I chose to
give my life
to Him.