the clown

this is something i wrote 5 years ago.

did you even once think about how you made me feel
when you tried to convince me my love for you wasn't real?
did you ever worry about how i might deal when you stepped on my heart and crushed it with your heel?
Did you think i could become easily unattatched
after all the memories we shared in the past?
did you think that my emotions were just taps
to be turned on and off wether or not we last?
Did you think that I would be fine all alone
when you left me with problems to deal with on my own
or when I was using my car as a home
cuz you wouldn't talk to me not even on the phone
how were you expecting me to handle the guilt
when my actions weekend the foundation of the relationship I built?
im a clown who feels small standing tall on these stilts
but you dont give a shit so I sit here and wilt