The other me

Just some emotions I was feeling August 1st 2008, revised.

I wish I could tear pages out of my memory

Cause my life has taken all of my energy

I'm feeling speechless, I'm bleeding, and defeated

And their approval is no longer needed


They could never see my outlook on life, they never wanted to see

All they could see is that, I wasn't who they wanted me to be

I know they were just like me with someone dissapointed in them

Its ok to hate yourself, because of you,  I hate myself too


Is it my fault I want someone to care?

Well maybe I wouldn't have so many problems they were there

The fact is they took their mistakes out on me

But they fail to realize, like them, I will never be


I want to  be able to laugh, live, hope, love & learn

But all they did was take my dreams and watch them burn

They broke down  the confidence I lacked, which they couldn't find

And they always asked me whats wrong with my mind


I've been controlled for 17 years, breaking me down inside

Everyday they did it, ignoring the pain in my eyes

Now it happens that I am finally free

And I'm allowing myself to be The Other Me