Seek and Destroy

It's a love/hate kinda thing....

I sit in my room and I stare at the wall.
Then just as I expect the tears begin to fall.
The pain builds up and my head explodes.
Emotions are screaming as my heart erodes.
You've hurt me more then once and I swear,
the pain you've caused just isnt fair.
I know I just enable you,
but what  am I supposed to do?
I love you with all of my heart, you bastard.
But when it comes to screwing me over, you sir are the master.
I despise you, I hate you,I loathe you, you prick.
I love you, I need you, you make me fucking sick.
Its over, Im done, I dont want this anymore
Its forever, eternity, I was born to love you, thats what my heart is for.
I was born to hate you, I was born to love you, I was born for you to destroy