Hidden Feelings

Something I wrote a while back

Sometimes I just don't know
I want to let it all go
I always hide it all
Even when I fall
I keep fighting but I always lose
This path was mine to choose
I have so much regret
All I want is to forget
My tears remain unshed
Remembering those I've seen dead
My heart torn in two
What am I to do?
Tucking away any emotion
Getting away from all commotion
My smile never to return
While my soul alone burn
Taking your hand in mine
Your eyes are so hard to find
I remember the betrayal and deceit
I was the one who admitted defeat
But I am stronger
I will last so much longer
I am quick to move
Myself I will prove
Now I leave you to your doom
While I walk where the black roses bloom