Kamikaze

A Kamikaze pilot having second thoughts

"No second thoughts, ever."
That's what I was told
Before I sat in this cockpit.
"No regrets, and no looking back."
Is what I told myself.

But traveling across the world has given
Me time to think.
Time to think all the dangerous thoughts,
Like "why?"
And "for what?"

For Honor
And Pride
We die.

Our arrival is
Anticlimactic.
No barrage of bullets;
No shells to dodge.

Just my explosive
Passengers
And I

This would not be
A beautiful death,
But a lonely one

It's too late
To turn back now.
Watching my final target
Grow closer
I speed up,
Grip the throttle,
And close my eyes