The way i Am

silence.................sh.....

as the days go by i run out of breath
the pain cause my heart to be throbbing of pain
every heart beat tells me that i get closer
its who i am of what people don't know
i try and try but nothing
i change and change but nothing
now i am faint
i cant take this
i feel as though my heart is wrapped around a vine of thorns
every tug brings me happiness from this world
every drop is a sign of being alone
but y me
y..........
it wasn't my my fault
its who i am
knowing you're always alone because of who you are
knowing you cant do better but worse
knowing that you are you and nothing will every be

the tears from my eyes don't matter
being myself doesn't matter
being alone is what matters

disappearing unnoticeable is something that will end the pain
just listening to the words of those have cause all of this

im here.........im running.......
faster.....and faster.......not turning back
not remembering

everyday is what i feel that i dont want
i cant do better

this is what it is
you or me but its just not fair

the beginning
the end
DEath is the thing