Christmas Chill

Continuation of my diary

I sit alone wonder what went wrong.  I've attempted all my feelings and they have all failed.

Now I am floating in an ocean, cold, dark and without compassion.  I will never understand natural love.

My journey has brought me to a place that is emotionally barren.  All I can do is heal and resurrect my hope.  Hope that maybe one day it will change, I will connect, I'll find her in my arms.  She will feel the same knot in her heart.

Or perhaps, I will realize that what is given to me is real, and what I desire is just fantasy.

Peace my Love.