Was it a Dream?

watching the one you love unrequitedly kill themselves slowly.

It's waking up to the only thing you know
that no one else does
knowing only you can imagine it
as everyone else plays their own song
Vindicated by the sound of your own heart beating
never knowing how loud your yelling
how deaf your listener is
who's story you're telling
It's crying for something no one else believes in
falling asleep to find dreams
wishing only the bad ones could come true
making the pain you feel the closest reality
It's watching someone kill themselves
wishing you could die aswell
knowing death's not the answer
but hoping that's your own lie too.