Because

Love and its cruelties

I know,
Who I am now,
I am not as strong as I pretend to be,
I'm am broken,
Confused as I ever was,
Back to square one,
Because I pushed you out of my life,

I know,
Things are different now,
but when I cry on your shoulder,
Everything changes,
I don't see her,
I just see you,
Because you're all I ever have wanted,

I know,
Life is complicated
At the best of times,
I'm not perfect,
But for you I'd try,
And I'm not half of her,
Not even close,
But I would never stray,
Or leave you be,
It would just be you,
It would just be me,

I hate you because loving you hurts too much