Saving You

A beautiful, some may say grotesque way of keeping someone with you always.

I saw you leave.
I saw your colours rising from your body.
Knowing that there were two ways for you to go,
either for you to recolour the world,
or for you to disappear,
knowing I could not live if I saw you disappear
i took a long look at you rising and spreading
and then, even while the tears were still running down my cheeks,
I tore out my eyes.