Pain

i was upset when i wrote this

The pain lives
                                inside the fear grows
                                why did you have to go
                                why couldnt you have stayed
                                the fear spreads
                                cant get close
                                cant be attach
                                all i have are the memories
                                you walked out
                                i ran for you to stay
                                I begged you not to go out in the rain
                                i should have fought harder
                                why didnt you hear my screams for you not to go
                                why did u have to go
                                why didnt stay
                                why did they drink that night
                                i shouldnt have let you go
                                now your gone
                                and my tears run
                                i pray for u to come back
                                i pray to have you near
                                i pray for it to be me and not you
                                i should have fought harder
                                how could you have not heard my screams
                                i begged you to stay
                                and now its to late