Want

Again about love and hate.

The taste of this makes me sick
makes me want to puke
want to cut the shame,
the memory, the guilt
Just want to be clean
Just want to be FREE
Just want to be something thats JUST NOT ME

Giving in stirs these voices
haunting me taunting me
telling me Im so cheap
so replaceable so niave
I scratch at them get them to leave
But I have opened a door only god can close
will he be willing again
does he understand
im so stupid so weak
my heart is for him (why did i give in)