Was it worth it?

was it worth bathing yourself in marijuana smoke and alcohol?

Memories
like tall oak trees
they stand big and strong.
Their leafy branches
sway in the wind,
they do but not for long.
You take those pills
and swallow them down
with the help of a little beer.
You tear the leaves off
one by one
until you don't remember I'm here.
You smoke and drink
your problems away
until you finally see
your problems are still there
you've only managed to lose me.