Full Circle

I've come full circle

I’ve come full circle
I give up
To you
That’s all I have left – letting go
No vision
Will get me through,
Guide my decisions
I have no compass left
Within myself
And there’s no trail
The one time I want one
What’s done is done
But what is moving on?
Nothing looks good enough
To be right
Absolutely, I’m scared
Gun shy about believing enough
So I give up
To you
To do what I can’t do
What I now refuse
What are feelings anyways?
When they can move so much in you and then just fade
And come back in unexpected forms
And feel good enough to make you mourn
Because they tease
Whispering tempting
Things a believer would believe
But if I were a believer still
I wouldn’t have room for those feeling to feel
So that leaves nothing
But letting go
I’ve come full circle
But you already know.