Feelings

This was a period in life when i was very self concious

To constantly compare yourself to someone
is to constantly put yourself down
and by doing so
is mental suicide
and to constantly compare yourself
to someone in another's eyes
is madness
that can push even the strongest of people
over the edge
make them feel weak and vunerable
even paranoid
i have these problems
these fears
that i will never measure up
i will never be as good
i will never come close
that no matter how hard i try
no matter what i say or do
they will never change
together forever
with no thoughts of nobody
for that's what im becoming
of no importance
so when i compare myself to her
it's like comparingan 8-year old girl to an old widow
the girl is new and whole and fruitful
as the widow is constantly depressed
and losing her mind
she's old news