Blame

My guilty feelings

Blame

Blamed for what happens
Blamed for saving 2 lives
Blamed for being honest

I wish I never saved him
I wish I wasn’t there
Being yelled at for what happens
Even if it wasn’t my fault
Having family and friends blame me for being myself
Making them embarrassed and angered when they find out the truth

Blaming myself because I didn’t stop them soon enough
Feeling guilty because I almost let them die
Feeling that they would have been better off if they never met me
Because then they would never have attempted it
They would never have wanted to die
They wouldn’t be mad that they survived