So Near

A poem of hurt inspired by a very dear friend.

Looking outside, I see myself
Cold and hurt, I bleed myself
Where am I now, amidst this frost,
Where is my treasure, don’t tell me it’s lost
Please help me find it,
I can’t live with it not

They say you don’t know,
What you got till it’s gone
But somehow this love
Was something I knew all along

Now I wish I could disappear,
I feel like another wasted tear.
Many open hearts, many to choose
But where is that one,
I never wanted to lose.

Now I am here, now I’m alone
Another shadow exits the door
Please hold me now, I cry in pain
Don’t let me suffer, this hateful rain
Another wish I made in fear
Another escape seems so near

"Don’t be so callous!” I hear myself say
But does my other hear it that way
They think I'm accusing them,
Of such horrid things
Some I could not imagine
Could even spin within

Now what do I do?
I feel all alone
I just wish my end
Would be so near!
I just wish my end
Would be so near!