Evaporated

i wrote this about my early childhood

Why, everday, does it get harder to smile?
I feel like all my happiness has evaporated,
like water on a 100 degree day.
I pick my self up off the floor,
try to carry on , and I fall once more.

I try to find something to carry me through,
but there's no one to come home too...
not even you

I try to remind myself there's gonna be a better day,
but every better day reminds me that the next day is gonna be like hell.
Life for me, from the day I was concieved, is a nightmare.

Every good thing was taken from me,
I guess I dont deserve happiness,
I'm stuck in this life,
like an animal in a cage.

I wish someone would come rescue me,
before I loose all my sanity.
Because everyday it gets harder and harder to smile.