I Swear

I was aiming for something to ask forgiveness to someone.

For the past few days
I've felt horrible
About what I've done to you
Over these long years.
I've called you helpless and worthless
I never meant any of it.
I swear.

All the pain I've caused you
Was brought out of anger and sadness
I swear.
I never planned for it to last this long
It was supposed to happen that one time
And that one time only,
I swear.

Now I know you hate me.
You don't even know the real me.
I've changed so much
Inside and out.
I'll never be the same again like you want me to,
I've gone too far off the deep end.
The me you once knew and loved
Has run away and will never return.

All the pain I've caused you
Was brought out of anger and sadness
I swear.
I never planned for it to last this long
It was supposed to happen that one time
And that one time only,
I swear.