My friend's suicide note

thank god she's still alive now

I wish that I was dead
So that I wouldnt have ever said
"I love you" to the boy
who I knew would never have loved me back
I wish that I was dead
So that I wouldnt have always fled
from the friends whom I said
"I hate you" to
Im sorry to those I have ruined so much for
Im sorry to those who had helped, yet got so far
Im sorry to you, who was always there for me
yet I was never there for you
you know I tried, I love you for that
but you were too good for me
I've done so many wrongs,
its almost so hard to find a right
in my dark sea of memories
And so here I am now
whom you see moping 'round
standin still like a stone
wishing she were dead