I'm The Fool

I wrote this when I was 18. I thought my world was over. I have since moved on.

Don't play me for a fool. I don't need it.
I hurt so much over you. Do you like seeing
me cry?
Does it not bother you that I cry?
Every day and every night. I have thoughts
of our relationship
with tons of pain. Do you care?
You say you do. Where is it?
Do I have to kill myself because of insanity
from all the pain before you realize?
Do you have to continue to make me believe
you love me when yopu don't?
Doesn't it bother you? I take it NOT!!!
I wish you would decide what you are going
to do. Make me happy, miserable or just
drop it so the pain goes away.
It's you choice, I'll deal with all three.
Because honestly I can't let go.
I never will. That's why it hurts.
And I believe.... That's why your doing it.