Disappointment?

My mom died on April 1st 2006

Disappointment?
Am I a disappointment now?
My life has gone down hill
Spiritually, since she died.
Sometimes…
I just sit
Sit in amazement,
Amazed that she’s really gone.
My friends all love me
But they have moms...
Its not fair!
Sometimes my heart just breaks.
I just want someone to hold me,
Let me sit in their arms and cry.
My heart...
It feels so broken.
(will it ever be whole again?)
This pain is just too real,
This emptiness
Where the loving friendship was,
Has yet to be refilled.
God!
This just hurts so much
Please take away the pain.
God I need you here and now
Deliver me today.