Guiding Light

5of16 of a poem series I wrote in the perspective of a friend who committed suicide

O Guiding Light,
in my eternal darkness,
why do you flee from me?
For I am unlike the hunters
who wish only to take from you
your most precious treasure,
but I only seek to feel
the warmth of your presence.

For it is that fading light
that gives me purpose to live on
so that I may become worthy one day
of the light that envelops your being.

I hope I do become worthy of you
for greatly I fear
that without your presence
I would lose myself to the darkness.

I seek you not as a prize
but as a blessing
for which I yearn to gain
and would do anything to obtain.