What Do I Do?

How I deal after we are through.

Sitting here thinking of you and thinking of me
Thinking of all of those little things
Like the water balloon fights and the swimming pool parties
The after-dark sneak outs just so we weren't apart
Everything that we did then was so much fun and filled with meaning
But when I see you now, I think why did I ever believe you?
I tell myself that it wasn't my fault, that the blame belongs to you
And deep down inside it hurts me even more because I know it's true
I know though inside all of this pain and under all the heart ache
That even after everything you put me through, I would do anything for you
I would take a bullet, I would take a knife
I would loose my friends, I would take my life
I can't stand seeing you happy because I know I really have lost
I can't stand seeing you suffer because I know that it's my fault
What do you propose I do
When everything I think about and everything I do
When my whole entire life revolves solely around you.