Dont ask Why

another poem from a dark time in my life.

don't ask why

I wake in the morning
stumble around the room
the leg aches and the back
the head feels like it is gone
cant see or think
don't know if I am alive
feel like the walking dead
stumble in and get a soda
take a long drink
take my daily pills

pills how I hate pills
have to take them
wish I didn't
want to throw them
instead I swallow them

start another day
walking into the unknown
not knowing
not seeing
not feeling
wandering
wandering
along a trail unmarked
seeing not where I go


one day
I will arrive
when I do
when I do
then will there be light
then there will be softness
then there will be love
then there will be home
there will be all that is gone
all I crave
all I want
all I need


need drives me stumbling
makes me keep going
makes me know I will
I will
I will

make the trip in time
in time I will arrive
in the place I seek

by Dragonridr on 12-10-1999