Abusive love

Another sad poem because of abuse in my life. It doesn't rhyme. No need for details.

A mothers tears
A daughters fears
A lover's screams
Twisted dreams
I know you loved me,
Love unknown
Deep inside I hated you
A broken heart unsewn
Blood splatters soaking in the wall
Gunshots ring out like a haunting call
Stand and laugh when I do fall
You lash out at the world
Through my pained tears
Lets make it clear
I'm not bitter
I want nothing of hatred, no sins to repay
with each blow and each cry
A bit more of love died
We forged the boundary between love and hate
Dove into pain to suffocate
The endless cries of failure
The boundaries we crossed the next time
Hatred fueled our passionate love
Love fueled our relentless hate
So that blow by blow
We could cross lines
Next time true love divides