| I know how it goes. I know what the deal is. I want more than I can afford from a life too expensive for my mental wages. I'm drained now and all I have left are these telling pages. So I consistently pay the tax that gets me to the next day. Trying to find ways to maintain a brain drained from pain. The price of the gas that fuels my inner fire is too much so I have to abstain. Inside insane and outside tame in a life where I gain no ground. So now I look. For that free thing. That desire and fire that inspires me to great deeds. Work, school, private life, money, hardship, heartache, and stress. Still I press on. |