I'm trying

Is it possible to keep going after losing someone to suicide?

I tried to satisfy you,
You know I was always true.
I tried to make you smile,
Maybe I did for a while.
I tried to be your angel,
And follow your "holy trail".
I tried to save us both,
And I meant my solemn oath.
I tried to learn your ways,
I played your little games.
I tried to carry on,
It's been hard since you've been gone.
I tried to force a grin,
When I went out with a friend.
I tried to visit your grave,
But I wasn't that brave.
I tried to stop the pain,
When I neatly sliced the vein.
I tried to stop my own living,
But I know you are forgiving.
And I'll try to keep going for you,
To do everything you never got to do.