I don't know anymore

a poem about pushing yourself to move forwards

I don't know anymore
if I can do this?
I don't know anymore
if I can cry,
I don't know anymore
if I can love
when so many times
I fall apart watching
Home Make-over re-runs,
I don't know anymore
if I can keep this front up,
because sometimes I f*** up,
sometimes I cry
sometimes I'm desperately awaiting
someone's hand to grab mine,
I don't know anymore
if I can do this
but, today I'm doing this
and tomorrow, I guess I could try.