The Breakup

Just something I wrote one night, sitting in my bathroom on the floor.

Who am I to say whats
wrong or right. Emotions
screaming, tempers flare in the middle
of the night.
One Word one thought
here comes another fight
Silence mirrors pain in your eyes
A wall goes up to protect you from
the lies
No more sun in these cloudy skies.
Tears pain and fear float
in the air.
I stand and watch, pretending not to care.
My mind screams....
GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!
The bottom falls out once again
Body quaking, pain and agony is here my friend
Scared and angry
Wondering is this the end?
No we live to love another day
Routine follows finding a new way
Hurting one another so much
its seems ok
I love you
I hate you
I cant with out you
Our lives we live together
and yet I still doubt you.
So many memories in our past
Our future
Will we make it?
Can we last?
I think sad thoughts
about good times
My decision is made
but you keep asking WHY?
I look at you knowing I need to say goodbye
I turn and touch your lips
I walk away because Iam done with this
As I go
I feel a pang of regret
As we share our last kiss