I want

On wanting and unwanting

I want the freedom
Without its shackles
The momentous joyousness
Without the confusion
The happy loverly-ness
Without my idiocy
The good decisions
Without bad luck

I want the intelligence
Without the over-analysis
I want the maturity
Without the complexity
I want the foresight
Without the disclaimers
I want the natural flow
Without the urge to control

I want the good intentions
Without bad repercussions
The careful honesty
Without the need for pain
The deeper depth
Without the intimacy
The exhilarating conversations
Without the attraction

I want not to want
In many things
And not to want
What others have
And to really want
What has been offered
As it IS

I want what I cannot have

And that is you

Without my complications