I Feel You

For the love of my life ~ I am here for you

I watched the sun come up today,
As I sat on my throne of pain wondering,
How it must feel for you,
Could you really feel this way?
I could never have imagined how emotion cuts,
So deep it feels when you give your love and die inside.

So undeserving, so undeserving I judge myself,
Gliding on words of love into the sky.
And in a flash comes the storm from the blue, forcing me down.
Why do I fly?
Is this how it is for you?

The rage inside seething onward, outward,
The geyser is erupting towards you,
But it's not really me,
How could it be this way?
I hate myself for what I am.
I love you and don't need you.

Everything dies, everything leaves me alone.
Please never leave me.
I hate you.
I love you.
Is this how you feel?
Let me in.