Silent Screamer

Is it possible to listen...but not hear?

silent screamer

there are times when i don't see
things just get so hard and different
guarding my heart from the hateful world
i lose faith in what i never believed

there are things i've never done
i don't like to do or i just don't want to
and things happen and i forget
or i remember but it's too late

i've never liked to do things your way
my way was the best way for me
i never thought i could do it
i didn't know i had the potential

my life was never perfect
i had everything i needed
i lost nothing i wanted
i lived on in the future

red shoes were my guardian angel
they brought in the messenger
my virtues were paraded around
i was no longer the silent screamer

life became less of a pain
desert was gone no more
i still hate other people's ways
but now i try them, sometimes