Landing

Landing on the ground, with rocks all around..or will I land safely in the water?

I don't need this
Little secret
Weighing me down
Hovering above the ground
From a sturdy noose
I try to break loose
But the floor is unstable
I am unable
To fall without consequence
My life is a sequence
My cries, through a dream
I blink and then scream
Is it real?
What's my deal?
I am dealt with the unwanted
I am hunted
By guns with a quick bullet
I try to pull through this
Pardon me for my strength
I dangle a great length
From the true
Things I do are obscene
But I do not mean
To ripple the lake
Next to the ground
Rocks all around
Which will I land upon?
My instinct is gone
Will I be like a cat?
And land on that
Piece of water
Decision grows hotter
With will to call
Me to the safe horizon
Where the life lies in
The calm waters.