I might as well not be here

why I should not be

I might as well not be here

I'm waving my hands
I'm raising my voice
I'm being myself
my skin is warm
my smile is there
I am here

My body is bigger than most
but I might as well be a ghost
I might as well not be here
maybe I should hold my breath
and see if I am really alive
I give all of myself
and I'm still get overlooked
just walk right past
don't say a word
don't acknowledge I'm here
because I'm not
what point is my existance
why am I here

wheather I am or not
doesn't seem to matter
I could be beating my fists against the glass
and your eyes wouldn't blink
I could scream and yell
carry on like a mad man
not a soul would turn around
for being so strange I seem to blend in very well